Sunday, February 14, 2010

My Funny Valentine

This morning I woke up, remembering that Will was going to New Zealand too! I had spent a couple of months getting used to the idea he would not be able to go because a shoot got scheduled during part of the time we'd be gone. I had adjusted to it. So three days ago when the shoot had to move, he immediately called and got a ticket, a rather expensive ticket now, but he's going!!! Every day since then, it hits me "He's going!" like I just found out.

This morning I say, "I'm so glad you're going to New Zealand!"

He said, "Me too. I just felt I was supposed to go. It needs to be shot."

It's Valentines. I said, "Did going with me have a little to do with it?"

"Uh . . (intelligible sound) uh . . What do you want to hear."

"The truth," and this is how you spell a giggle in Japanese. Gera-gera. All the Gera Gera's are mine.

"Well, I felt I should go (Gera Gera) and I knew you were going to be fine (Gera gera), you're strong. You don't really need anyone or me (Gera Gera) for this trip.
It is really important for the tribe to have this film and I wanted to be sure to do it. (Gera gera), of course I'm happy we'll be there but it's going to be a big job, you know, and I'm not going to be able to really be there with you until we sleep (Gera gera)."

I get up to go to the bathroom and hear him say "But it is nice we're going together"
(Gera gera) but it's going to be a lot of work."

He followed me and said, "So what are you thinking about what I said."

"It makes me so happy, I think I'll blog."

That is how my Honey talks every day every instance, with blunt honesty, and commitment to us and everything that matters to us. It's not a small thing that here at the last minute, the second he has a choice, this Yankee Doolittle dropped $2000 without a bat of any eye (maybe his finger trembled a little hovering over the "send" button before he pushed it for his ticket. He's always been navigated by what he SHOULD do in the big scheme of things. That he is going to New Zealand, and that he's doing it for the tribe, and that he knows it is something he should do and that he even on Valentines Day he can't sugarcoat the truth makes me Gera Gera. That is Valentines for me. He makes me giggle. We're both where we're supposed to be and we are doing it together and for the same reason. This is the only Valentines I ever need.


  1. Hey Misa,
    I've recently joined the whole blogging game too. Well, it is a class blog. I'd like you to check it out.

  2. I am so happy to read this!!!!! I will definitely check your blog out. I always loved your writing!


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I am a citizen of the Winnemem Wintu Tribe. I am a Nikkei descendant sansei (third generation);retired teacher, involved in the Winnemem tribal responsibility to Water, Salmon, and our belief that the Sacred is our Teacher. Working locally for human rights and supporting youth leadership.